commence*

Life as we know it, is so precious; we forget to think about things like that. Seeing my growth before my eyes in certain areas is really a humbling feeling. Thank God for time and chance; with each day I’m blessed with an opportunity to learn from my mistakes I made yesterday, and try again – hence, another chance.

The saying is you only have one life to live; in my opinion, I believe each day The Lord bless’ us with another is another advantage at life and so far the Lord been waking me up for 28 years and counting! I have many flaws, yet I’m very ok with that; I’m saying Hallelujah anyhow! Why? I say this because it is well; even with what “looks” like a low time in my life, there’s light at the end of this storm – sunshine if you want to get technical.

See, when you find yourself in a place where your faith begins to evolve in the unconscious mind and heart, you no longer look at what’s in front of you. I have vision, not just sight – a vision has no obligation to look back, but what’s in front of me, and beyond – just sitting here composing this passage, gives me more correspondence to what going on in a whole – everything is connected. I’m blessed to have an avenue where I am able to have this kind of breakthrough at the age I am.

God is so good, and his grace and mercy never stops! Knowing what I know now, the only thing I would take back are the moments where I should’ve just took a moment, and tell myself STOP. Yet, I am deeply grateful that I went through the things I did; painful and scaring moments, became healed wounds for a testimony and growth in my life as the woman I am to this day. I pray to myself everyday, that pass the flesh I’m in, he is still pleased with my heart.  

bridge*

Walking by faith is the most healthiest thing you can do. Faith is when you allow the Lord to take over all milestones in your life – good or bad.

Simple, YET it can be so complicated, and this can be said from experience. Whether it seem like I’m babbling or not, this was in my spirit to put down. Life is so hard, having front row seats to that can bring a lot of emotions and feelings that are sometimes unexplained.

Things unknown are mostly for the best in my opinion. As bad as I would like to know every single thing, I’ve realized that it’s better not to know all the time. Doors that can regrettably be open are the hardest ones to close back.  

unto me*

I am positioning my thoughts on paper, exploring my mind with help from my savior…

there’s a specific mentality I want to maintain, doing my best not to make the same mistakes again…

overwhelmed by the lack of faith, but doing above and beyond for my peace sake – no more, will I walk eggshells as if my life is at stake; the spiritual things I’m sensing will eventually take it’s rightful place…

3125*

I must watch my back

and be focused on permanent achievements, that is only supported with facts

jumping over the walls of fear

I’m a faithful one, I am everything I say I am – I’m just making it clear –

I’m subjected to a place of empathy

it’s a fulfilling moment that never leave me feeling empty

molding one’s life can be a strenuous journey

but be strong, even when it feels like an eternity

this is your time….

glossitis*

feeling every second of this moment I’m in

getting crazy, without being the fool again

I’m running things now

no more stepping over me or pushing me around

artistic in every way

I’ve always been a fan of, “saying it to your face”

protecting every part of my being

nevermore will one be allowed to be deceiving

without the glue [me], how can you fix every piece?

the doubt in my heart has definitely decreased…

confiding*

looing for a vibe that’s mystical; fixing one’s gaze for a touch that isn’t physical… connect with me with a warm heart – though, I’m honestly over that part – deceit has never went this far… I’m ready for a scene where my time in this moment can depart… why do people love to hurt?

then try to be the confidant when it began with them first; those behave in this way should be cursed – not to sound narcissistic, and without any effort to judge – but someone has to be the one to give these issues a nudge…

air dry*

so in love with my being – I’m not being vain – though, the amount of love that fills my heart is insane; I’m straightforward, it’s better than dodging it, running really won’t solve it…

being this bright is a cherishing privilege, furthermore I am beyond grateful, I could bellow a scrimmage; I know of the mission, and I must finish it…

my eyes are focused on a blessing I have yet to see, the only thing one need is to believe; be positive, culminate, and I’m sure one will succeed…

labored breathing*

keep going, I say to myself – never with pride, I just know when I need help; I’ve grown tremendously in that area, because usually, I’d torcher myself into hysteria…

it’ll register soon – the history we’re living in has been so cruel; being able to adapt to certain circumstance – being damned if you do, or you don’t, is a vicious plan…

finding my place outside of this world’s boundaries, discovering solitude within myself is a true place to be; I’m enticed with a positive fin, giving my all by wisely making life choices I can contend…

soaring toward excellence*

…your beauty is immense, yet, you have a mind that makes no sense; be bold, and surely it’s worth will pour over your patience…

It’s a lot when you’re just not sure, I mean, I thought I knew me; that turned into a slammed door, I knew nothing innocently – never on purpose – although, who wouldn’t want to know themselves? All I am sure of, is that I am a servant  looking for ways to prevail…

back up*

there’s a weird sensation, that gets me thinking i’m in the twilight zone; the only sound I can comprehend is vibrations of a dial tone…

extremely anxious, I want to indulge without being dismissed; my conscious is trying to make sense of it. no one is more capable – I’m unpredictable, with every advantage to turn tables… I be damn if i’m given a weak title, there’s one of me, you and them; I’m determined to have any regrets, even when I’m pushed upon a fence… my soul only works for me, trying to duplicate it wouldn’t make any sense…

I am peculiar, and I feel it’s fair to say so from the pov of my own future…