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I have so many talents; I end up doing so many things, that it becomes useless. my mind is always streaming, as if my thoughts are running background; you can’t see how it looks, but you can see how it sound…

I just want it to stop sometimes so that my mentation can sync; and it doesn’t, so I begin to feel myself sink. I do my best to grasp the essence of my abilities and it’s achievements; it gives me fuel to have something to believe in.

I have so many dreams listed as goals; doing all I can besides selling my soul. venting positivity, manifesting my words into a reality of my control.

signature in the dark*

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putting down the now; feeling the weather, enjoying it’s sound. bursting in bliss; all the time I am embraced with favor, and it’s never missed.

I am as positive as I can be; giving you everything you see, to believe. not in me but the movement, as well as the foundation; having faith in your own growth, so there will be any contemplation.

writing in the dark again; I think about my eyesight – what a blessed woman.

I have sight when I need it the most; handwritten will always be more classic than a social media post!

here I am as free as I could imagine; everything around me feels like magic! without having to pretend; I see people loves the true me enough to be a friend.

my surroundings can be quite astounding; I blend with the air as I walk as if the wind found me!

wonderful sunlight kisses on my forehead; unconditioned graced is was the experience – without having to beg.

constructing my own path, while in the shadow of another; withered with certain odds, most wouldn’t bother.

but I do!

rose grow faster in concrete – meaning your inequities could never subdue you!

i created a reflection*

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I’m fighting a younger part of myself; very vulnerable in this juncture, because of the weight it puts on my health. my child is a very special gift to me, he imitates what i’ve done as a child, and I consider that a bill of wealth.

it can be frustrating when you don’t know how to deal with a reflection of you; I drive myself insane, because those were the things I use to do! how can I discipline something like this.? I need a better point of view.!

what may have worked on my behavior, don’t work on this kid; he’s phased by nothing, so I tend to look up and pray to my savior, and that’s what I did…

I love my mini-me so much; even talking about him, makes me blush! raising him is something I don’t want rush – I am proud to be his mom and be able to watch him grow up!

Time to Cuss*

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focused on me – Shakia; fuck all the talk, I am a seer!

playing with things in life, like loyalty; KNOW that heathens were never rewarded royalty.

all I want is a fat blunt; to kick off my creativity, like a punt!

I’m tired of the routine bullshit; as much as I do, you would think there was a profit…

though, I sit back and think of it; maybe my purpose is to somewhat be a prophet.

so I guess there’s no more time to curse.

poor Thing*

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I don’t know if I’m rushing anything at this point, or has my patience lost its voice.

love is kind a tender; yet, I am emotionally distressed; the man that I love doesn’t render, I am depressed…

I love entirely too hard; never knew that reciprocation could be the challenging part!

must I slit my wrists, and give my life? just for you to be assured that I was chosen to be your wife.

I thought you was Romeo, and I was Juliet; oh how the tables feel turned, soon they’ll be a dead silence…

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using all resources I have; so I can make plentiful of the things that’ll be provided. though, the risks I take to do this hasn’t been easy to grasp; I was taken down a path that was guided. my mental is not as organized in the way that I yearn for; sadness allures my soul from time to time. I don’t allow it to consume me, but there’re moments where I am not fine. I cry for nothing at moments, because I’m handed less when I deserve more; it’s why I’m all in for what I grind for…

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taking my inspirations and executing positivity. I’m no longer looking for happiness, but salvation for eternity. I am a work in progress – saying without it being an excuse, but there are days where I can’t digress.

it’s why I stay mentally abroad; I am human; a woman of God. can’t say I was made with perfection, but he definitely made me wonderful and all. walking in faith; seeing grace in front of me; i hope one day you’ll experience the same peace.

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wondering through everything I’ve been thinking; magnifying my faith in a way where I’m rejoicing the unseen.

I went backward for a moment, so I could go back and reflect. I am building my intellect; it’s been awhile since I pulled an all-nighter. using all mental to tools I have to be my own igniter.

feeling dehydrated, as if I did sleep – with my eyes wide open. now feeling bad, because now it’s daylight, and my superior won’t let me focus. this is so blah – moving forward….

I’m having trouble gathering what I really feel. I don’t know if it’s just in my mind, or in my heart that makes me believe as if I’m in an ordeal. I’m working on it though, it’ll get better – I know it will…

changing the route in the flow of my stream; turning my subtle thoughts into a reality of dreams…

~ Europa

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I don’t want what someone else has; it would just feel good to have love that last

I get in my emotions about my relationships; I do my best to look at them as lessons for future companioship

I know I am an amazing woman; I am gentle, firm and polished. still, I find myself being treated foolishly. and all I can feel is demolished.

I am standing still now; it’s my turn to be the one that is found. honest faith is how blessings make their delivery; and my confidence will be more than just figuratively.