Category Volume Two

Journal Entry # 31

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Mistake to a Lesson*

Eating an unforgettable fruit

Yearning to understand Eve’s point of view

I’ve dived into something that was once a promise

I’m enduring many emotions, yet I’m at my calmest

Realizing that I do these things to test the strength I heed

I’m taking control of this vice without intentions of deceit

Proving to myself that I know when to take action

Being stern, breaking down each obstacle by a fraction

I call myself enhancing the powers I already possess

I just don’t those around me to extend any extra stress

Why isn’t there another way to celebrate

My option is a funeral or a birthday cake – for Christ’ sake

One glance, digesting the fruit of an unknown

And I just disappear – wanting to find somewhere to call home

Journal Entry # 30*

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Continued Journey*

Understanding her worth is priority; She yearns for God to rule in her life with authority.

In her downfalls and her success, I mean accomplishments, she always holds everyone up, knowing it is she who is truly down, but she is patient.

She tries to focus on that one solid goal until things distract her, thinking what they detoured her to was solid gold.

I applaud her efforts that she’s commissioning; my only prayer is that someone is listening.

Journal Entry # 29*

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I am filled with words even when I feel like my mind went blank – I immediately observe. Then think.

My technique has a couple holes; still, God knows my heart and soul.

Inspired by the little things [it’s where the signs are] and I’m taking it in.

Clutching the pure joy it brings; as so, I grasp the many blessing of its memory.

Slowly healing each scar; I’m confident that I don’t have that far.

Understanding her worth is very important…

Journal Entry # 27 and 28*

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Twenty-Seven*

One hour ago things were very grey; right now I’m more than amazed.

Repetitive things don’t always adjust to the way I think; life is familiar – just like writing in the same ink, doesn’t mean I’m going to writing the same thing.

I’m looking for grace and mercy to flood my soul and spirit; I want to feel it in my veins; I’m searching for it beyond these walls, above this ceiling!

Don’t make me say that again….

Twenty-Eight*

I am great

I am empathetic

I am not small

I am not pathetic

I am a servant

I am a leader

I am not quiet

I am a loud speaker

I am a conqueror

I am triumphant

I am not less than

I am one out of one-hundred

I am filled with glory

I am thankful to my Lord

I am not fiction

I am a true story

Journal Entry # 26*

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What is my deal? I’m providing all good energy, yet, to others, the price of it is a steal!

Am I too nice, too lenient? Do you think it’s fair, even though I’m obedient?

Give me a moment – I’m talking to myself; you know what they say, “that’s not good for your health.”

Well, what I do? Why is there silence, will the answers I receive from my questions be of any use?

I can’t stress it enough! We are here to be used for good works; one shouldn’t abuse, because one is a jerk.

Going outside of the lines isn’t a feature I hold, and it’s a habit I choose not to break.

I’m opposed to repeating any of my mistakes.

It’s intriguing to watch one actually have the guts; it devours my stomach with disgust.

I can’t stress these things enough!

Being of use in good works was the only thing expected of us.

Continue to be useful, not useless; don’t stand in the way of another’s shot – be humble, your character is all you got!

Shower me with mercy so that grace flow when I speak…

Europa

Journal Entry # 25*

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I fell into a deep slumber, whilst listening to an abundance of wisdom; I magnify Jesus’ name, because only he is the way to a true kingdom!

I’ve never been shy about His name or my love for Him. Many don’t understand, but I’m glad that I’m one of them!

I view my writings as prayer; I get deep into the thought, knowing that when I get lost in any trap within my mind, I know to always call on my Savior!

I ask now and anyone reading this – Shower us with mercy, so that grace can flow when sorrow makes us thirsty; with your guidance, I have no fear as I travel through my journey.

Amanda’s World*

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“There’s a well in me…”

Genesis 1:28

Often I stumble down to a place that makes me dark; putting myself behind the prey that caused it from the start.

I stray from any form of manipulation; it causes me to feel confused with frustration.

Today, I retire from old guilt trips; I’m moving on to greater fellowships.

I’ve realized that support is replaceable; I understand that there’re more options than to lean on those who’d rather make a fool of you.

Devastation, embarrassment, and acceptance – these things have appeared in my life as a hinderance.

Exploiting it has opened my spirit, finding fruition within the problem.

Showing responsibility for my actions, to create better solutions to solve them.

Capturing the key idea of this conundrum inadmissibly, understanding where the roots begin; bellowing over indescribable emotions that I’m fighting within.

I’m confident this will also be well enough to come together; soon time will tell, until then, I’ll continue to apply the pressure!

Journal Entry # 24

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I’m finally free to vocalize what I feel without fear; recounting my story with genuine, listening ears.

Unfolding every raw inequity; being honest in every flaw and complexity.

Finally! I’m on a fresh path placed by my Lord, thankfully! I’m releasing all sorrow in order to move forward peacefully.

You get what you put out; for me, that’ll never be doubt!

“Don’t change the intention; change how to fulfill the intention…”

Sarah Jakes-Roberts

Jordan Entry 23*

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I want to do so many things that I get frustrated with the rate of my success; my actions are synonymous with the goals I set my mind on, yet every step I make feels disorganized, just a complete mess!

Beyond that, I still strive to pay closer attention to the lessons, and not the mistakes; recognizing that the blessing in it is because of my faith.

I dig deep to channel the visions I have from my point of view; looking for the words to describe my peculiarity, because my colours are of a different hue.

Being content in this space; Embracing the peace like it’s the last breath I can take – hoping to grow. Allowing my faith to break my fall whenever failure shows.

I looked into the mirror, and I demand integrity; I am completely fine with who I’m developing into. At this moment, I’ve finally had clarity.

Journal Entry # 22

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Gab*

why do I sit here and contemplate my differences?

hoping that my words are more than emphasis, but deliberate.

I’m capable of so much, and luck conceived none of it! Although I am extremely humble, I’m also confident, making it normal to make myself prominent.

only I can care for myself the way I do!

I would never guide myself into the wrong point of view.

I’m impressing a certain height of power, engaging in tasks, most wouldn’t have the courage to do; believe me, I may not be old, but I’m also not new –

There’s nothing in this world that will stress me into a casket; I am made whole and complete to be everlasting.