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ebullience*

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I’m sharpening my skills I haven’t yet executed; I’m becoming stronger and no longer feeling persecuted. walking in my shoes has taken a tole; running, jumping, NEVER walking, I’m always ruining my soles.

benefiting from hurt is a serious level of reaping; stay close, I haven’t went left, but I tend to be right when I’m speaking…

those that show consistency, only do when it profits selfish satisfactions; my mind is what truly represents my benefaction; yet, I’m made to always feel as if I’m nothing more than a small diffraction.

love me, not my flesh; cherish my spirit, without distress, allow ourselves to genuinely mesh. I will not beg for understanding and intimacy to be vested; never again will I allow my heart to feel detested…

Qi*

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I have a story that would blow your mind; it could take awhile, so I hope you have time…

building a cornerstone that’ll create a new past; pushing back the bad dwellings with the good and vast. as a teen I portrayed the life of an adult; when it was time to act my age, I didn’t know how, and that’s not my fault.

influences can extend a huge impact; those who are elder to me had plans to enact. adolescent and naïve to what was really right and really wrong; being in that position can also come with rebellion, while being headstrong.

with such responsibility at a stage during puberty, while I’m fighting demons to get far from a toxic continuity; I’m turning it all around, once I’ve crossed over the abyss; I’ll finally have something else to reminisce…

uttermost*

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far away from here sounds like a figment; the way things have been going, it doesn’t sound like a bad commitment. I wanna be where only stars brighten my night, while sunshine illuminates my day; I wanna get lost in a conception of felicity, grasping every aspect of this phase.

no longer living with a mindset of life feeling often naught; neutralizing any wickedness that may try to overcast any dream I’ve sought. appeasing to idealize an existence of purity and its nourishments; some days I wish for evil there would be a special law to banish it, with the communities full encouragement.

I aspire for genuine admiration to cleanse my mind of the thought of it being improbable; free of naivety in knowing that nothing is truly impossible. my feet are grounded to the earth and my mind and is centralized in faith; for this figment I revered is closer than far away…

caupernaum pt.1*

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village of comfort.

Hebrew Translation

sin full-grown, gives birth to death; taking away all your energy and your breath. where inequities from personal views are shared as a general problem; each of us has our transgressions, and not every one of them is worth solving.

the relationships we keep must be essential to our well-being, without these functions, I will never give you access; see. I want for my village to be ample of unconditional care, concern, and love fully dressed!

this village watches over my son, I have given a honorable position before the relation had begun; why? you’re apart of this family, whether you like me or not, love becomes our mutual understanding.

I’m ok with a fellowship of just two, maybe three; I could keep my eyes closer, watching a crowd that brought the power of thee. I am not the only one on watch; my God will always cover my blind spots, even after the day my heart stop!

GeHarashim*

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valley of skilled workers.

Hebrew Translation

I am compelled to follow the path drawn out for me, enduring the valleys that will ply me with strength to walk all endeavors; the quality of dynamism I possess, cannot allow negativity in at any measure.

those that follow my lead, know that I’m walking with them, and not ahead; showing an example to reciprocate is the best way to make sure your team isn’t mislead.

I am expanding my cerebration with blueprints of larger plateaus, full of momentum; having a certain confidence over yonder, is allowing your existence to be more than just a system.

centralized*

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finding that center is what’s important to me; it doesn’t matter what happened in the beginning.

there’s more to existing, than living for another’s opinion; no one else control’s you, only you haver that dominion. the certification of someone else also doesn’t complete you as a person; I mean you are the only version.

everything is revolving, always full-circle, looking for life to be more than improbable. Coasting through life trying to keep up with its obstacles.

I’ve been getting my ass kicked hard; all I want is for my child and I to live a life without putting up our guards.

vulnerable*

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I’m hurting inside 

Only a bit 

I just want more than a joyride 

I want to be a complete fit 

Putting the pride away 

Enjoying every moment each day 

Loving each other 

It’s a healthy vibration 

As a family we’ll be great 

Mother and father together  

More than my imagination 

I’m extremely scared 

Just cherish me for real 

Care the way I care 

Not connecting 

That wasn’t the deal 

There was always going be affection 

That was very clear 

Confused most of the time 

I’m done pretending I’m fine 

Not receiving mutual feedback  

Because it’s not always clear 

That’s time I could never get back 

And that’s what I sometimes fear 

Tell me what it is already 

Feels like I’m hanging by a thread 

This will no longer be fair to me  

Because that’s one thing I dread 

Time tells everything 

That I understand 

Maybe nervousness of it has me jittery 

And maybe that was the plan 

signature in the dark*

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putting down the now; feeling the weather, enjoying it’s sound. bursting in bliss; all the time I am embraced with favor, and it’s never missed.

I am as positive as I can be; giving you everything you see, to believe. not in me but the movement, as well as the foundation; having faith in your own growth, so there will be any contemplation.

writing in the dark again; I think about my eyesight – what a blessed woman.

I have sight when I need it the most; handwritten will always be more classic than a social media post!

here I am as free as I could imagine; everything around me feels like magic! without having to pretend; I see people loves the true me enough to be a friend.

my surroundings can be quite astounding; I blend with the air as I walk as if the wind found me!

wonderful sunlight kisses on my forehead; unconditioned graced is was the experience – without having to beg.

constructing my own path, while in the shadow of another; withered with certain odds, most wouldn’t bother.

but I do!

rose grow faster in concrete – meaning your inequities could never subdue you!

i created a reflection*

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I’m fighting a younger part of myself; very vulnerable in this juncture, because of the weight it puts on my health. my child is a very special gift to me, he imitates what i’ve done as a child, and I consider that a bill of wealth.

it can be frustrating when you don’t know how to deal with a reflection of you; I drive myself insane, because those were the things I use to do! how can I discipline something like this.? I need a better point of view.!

what may have worked on my behavior, don’t work on this kid; he’s phased by nothing, so I tend to look up and pray to my savior, and that’s what I did…

I love my mini-me so much; even talking about him, makes me blush! raising him is something I don’t want rush – I am proud to be his mom and be able to watch him grow up!