Journal Entry # 17


Gray*

Retaining inspiration to better my situation; another may see gray and think gloom, whereas I see a rainbow from my perception.

Gray to me is that fine line that petrifies folks; panicking, without realizing that it takes away your sanity once invoked.

I am ingenious, layered with principles that pushes me infinitely toward transcendence; as I continue, I realize that where I was weakened, is now a strength of independence.

Journal Entry # 16

understatements*


Connecting to an inexperienced part of who I am; Undressing layers as each day pass – as if it’s an intimate promised land.

Any philistine that tamper with my devotion, shows the value of their time; my destination is inevitable, detours never put me in the position to ever run behind.

I am focused and resilient toward the path paved for me; mindfulness has kept my thoughts from feeling superfluous and empty – giving my mind more care and healing therapy.

going off the rails, whilst smiling harder than I ever have, all because i took a chance on defining faith; as I absorb all of this energy, i lose interest in the diversions that got me to this place.

It’s giving, “Finally!” – because the grunt of the lesson is behind me!

Journal Entry # 15

3rd Moon’s the Charm*


The room is still on high frequency

-I’m awake, yet it feels like a dream

being embraced like that, was the definition of intimacy

-God knows, nothing is what it seem

I’m in anguish by the way things are conditioned

-As a woman , it’s hard not to display emotion

I get mad often, because, what happened to my choices and decisions

-Why can’t i just be the focus?

turn the page

The Title*

I’m interpreting my current train of thought

-thinking of the fights that i’ve fought

there’s a tug of war between running onward, or away from my issues

-really putting in the work, hoping the strategy isn’t misused

encapsulated by worries i shouldn’t dwell on

-focusing on my breathing – hoping this moment don’t last long

Journal Entry # 13

An interlude*


Almost close to home

-as I get closer, I begin to feel alone

Do I really want that many hands out?

-I don’t desire emotions of doubt

With prospect I realized I enjoy to give

-thereof, I really had to learn how to forgive

Taking action in developing a first impression

-empathizing where i see fit with digression

Journal Entry # 12

Adducing – ย citing as evidence or proof…


I’ve been shuffling around, looking for a vantage point

-Envious thoughts are rebuked, I am someone conjoint

I want to be united within, the without doesn’t reflect the true image

-I’m playing this field aggressively; the vibes are showing an intense scrimmage, culminating passively

Journal Entry # 11

A Blue View*


Understand why I refrain from asking questions

-finding the guidance is more than suggestion

Give me time though

-I look onward, and not into long ago

My mind circulate with many proposals

-digesting on the actions revealed as noble

Identifying my legacy without menace

-espousing a mind that’s conscientious

Break*

“A still tongue makes a wise head.” Do much thinking before you do much talking.”

โ€“ ALFRED J. PARKER

My Name is Shakia*

the names we use create life experiences – and mine has created a kindred nature with the desire to associate in friendship and understanding both socially and in the business world.

Peaceful and settled conditions can often appeal to me; Naturally, I am desirous with having the security of home, where my life can follow a definite pattern, where I don’t have to make major decisions.

even though its rare, I find it difficult to take a definite stand, partly because of what I may be lacking [maybe confidence] – I also dislike any issues which create disputes between people.

Procrastination is a nasty habit which often, what you can call a weakness of my nature, causing an inability to always complete plans or concentrate too long.

I need to see a concept presented completely before I can understand it, and if I can’t understand it – I come to my own conclusion, often failing to listen to and reason out another’s point of view

I resist being forced into change and can become almost impervious to new ideas.

I desire refinement, understanding and appreciation, yet sometimes my outward attitude does not reveal my innermost feelings, and thus, I have never felt truly understood.

Journal Entry # 10

the fan is blowing in one direction, while the wind moves wherever; my fireplace shows the illusion of flames, though, no warmth comes from it - I'm just setting the tone for a mental endeavor.

comfort is imperative; facing a door labeled "opportunities", hoping that when I walk through it, it changes my narrative..