6970*

I want to communicate how I write, because in reverse, I could take on a sailor, any day or night! What’s wrong with being raw on what I believe to be honesty; when I soften it up, it seems that no one is listening to me!

I’m tired of being taken advantage of; why is it so hard to do right by the ones we love?
Inhaling the frustration, hoping it’ll go away when it’s exhaled; I’m distancing myself from negativity, I don’t care if I have to yell!

Journal Entry # 40

Digression*

Gazing thoughtfully into a future I’m working to manifest.
Drawing out ambitious blueprints, graciously allowing my God some rest.
We can’t do it entirely by ourselves, we all need help; keeping in mind, that one must go by the facts and not how one may have felt!

I’m feeling undeniably worthy and procured; walking on unshakable faith is clearly understood!
Naturally possessing everlasting happiness can be rare; as long as one’s focus is attentive, one will continue being aware.

Punctuating key steps to follow what comes out of one’s mouth; confident and honesty will never cause you to doubt.
Oft-times, there are moments where I feel it’s not enough;ย Nevertheless, once I reflect, andย recognize I’m capable of more, my strength becomes resilient even when it gets rough!

Journal Entry # 39

I don’t feel anyย negative pressure; I’m touchedย by one’s intellect, and it’s sincerely aย pleasure.
Genuine compassion that lead to indescribable encounters naturally brings divine grace; I’m allowed toย seize ampleย time, because one induces me to feel like this isn’t a race.
Escaping to a world separate from where pain and misery reside; unbolting the door of assurance, for there’s no longer a need to hide.

Journal Entry # 38*

My eyes are directed north; resolutely facing each intended mission that comes forth.
Visualizing the thought of peace and happiness; even though I want the love, I stray from the stress.
My cultural intimacy that has precedence; my ultimate goal is more than just practical independence.
I’m aware things will eventually fall into place; I’m recognizing this is a marathon and not a race!

Journal Entry #’s 36 and 37*

63


My patience is there, but it’s thin.
I have much to confess, but I don’t know where to begin; 
The first step has to start within.
I’m declaring my throne as a resilient woman.
Ready for anything, at any moment.
I am who I am; that’ll always fuel my confidence.

73


She sits gracefully in an illuminated room, not realizing she naturally serves as the key source to the leading light; the gentle radiance of her eager spirit spreads like wildfire, exploiting boundless love full of sprites! As one gets more intimate with the direct vision, eventually brings clear sight.


She’s diligently pursuing a lifelong dream that’s naturally forming into her ultimate reality; as her hands touch the silhouette of her ultimate fate, she loses sight on what may invariably appear as a functional abnormality.

Liberal Thoughts*

Being full of the divine power of love requires immense responsibility; eternal sacrifices are required, and it’s held at the intensest degree.

Being emotionally, mentally, and spiritually unconditional, retains a unique level of intellectual intimacy; it feels, then appear to obtain a guarantee, and that’s promising.

I’m trekking in the established confidence of trust, it’s genuinely a sensation of supremacy; I’m gushing with many emotions, because sincerely, I feel one is falling in love with me…

Under no circumstances has there been any pressure – I’m moved by one’s intellect, and it’s a pleasure.

Elementsย that leads to indescribable moments,ย bringsย meย grace; I’mย ableย toย takeย myย time, because oneย knowsย this isn’t aย race.

Being in a world separate from where pain and anguish reside;
I’m opening my door to assurance, and there’s no need to hide.

Whelm*

Paranoia used to create depression; eventually becoming an obsession.

Being in a vulnerable position is, or can be dangerous; in the wrong hands, it can a battle to trust.

I’m over the destruction from the unknown need to panic; my goal is not for this to become a habit!

I’ve come along way, though, I’m still on a journey that isn’t far; my light will continue to shine brilliantly, especially in the dark!

Interception*

Using my pain to ignite creativity; I’m constantly looking to have longevity.

Pressure that is fixed upon me gets me down; thereof, I use depression as a throne to sit, because I wear the crown!

Being exceptional in perceptions, because I am love regardless; I have the power to conceive! I know love and pain will complete the promise.

Old Love*

Renewal is Expiring*

I wonโ€™t let him go, yet he refuses to confess his love for me – this is getting old.

Loving this man significantly that I am worried Iโ€™ve been doing this all wrong; At least Iโ€™ve upgraded to, โ€œI miss youโ€™sโ€, after a year, yep, you can put that in a song.

Even the birds outside decided to no longer watch from the power lines; this is no longer unconditional, this is hurting more than my pride!

Itโ€™s weird, and Iโ€™m a bit confused. I donโ€™t know if you want to be here, or if you want to make me feel used, then disappear.

Iโ€™ve made it real clear I donโ€™t allow adolescence when Iโ€™m dealing with adult conjunctions; Iโ€™m a woman who demands competence, and love that actually function!