aeration*

December 17, 2020January 1, 2023europaskiwi Leave a comment

I’m not the one you can count to ten with; although, once the steam settles, I may consider forgiveness… I’m feeling dark today – maybe losing a bit of sunshine will show that taking advantage, is not okay…

I wish I wasn’t the monster under the smile, but I am and it began as a child… reflecting on many episodes, good and bad… I evolved to what I’ve witnessed and presented it perfectly… and its sad

don’t blame the mold of the model, blame those that watched and had expectations for me to follow –

One Soul | Two Spirits | Three Faces

November 12, 2020January 1, 2023europaskiwi Leave a comment

we have three faces they say; the one we show to the world, the one we should to our family, and the one we see, ourselves at the end of day. exploring the nature of merging all three; I’ve become infatuated with the idea. to be a complete and whole being; as one person without fear.

having absolute control on what you want people to see; how would that affect the world’s decree? by using false prophecies to mute when you speak; in other words, blasphemy!

life usually gets rough in the middle of your days – hence, mid-life crisis’ is what it was called yesterday. with dirt and gravel, produces foundation for new comings. whether it’s a new way of living or drastic shift in your shortcomings…

forgiveness for me*

October 2, 2020January 1, 2023europaskiwi Leave a comment

I’m amused at the things I choose to love, and stress about; mindlessly naïve to what I should’ve given doubt. I’m frazzled with thoughts I’ve constantly brainstormed; coming to an understanding that there’s a certain way to perform.

I am moving very steady; making preparations to be ready. whatever may come, I want to fully be whole for my blessing; my first reaction will be to many, quite an impression. I’ve been working on changeable flaws; I don’t bother listing them, it would sound like a drawn out clause.

I truly want to be a better person daily; given with support I hold tight to, can only be family. What’s insane, is they’re worst than strangers; though, it’s safe to say at least we can understand each others anger…

motivating…*

September 9, 2020January 1, 2023europaskiwi Leave a comment

riveting feelings has emerged, with an impulse to purge; when adrenaline is pumping, so do momentum. I’m ecstatic by challenges like this, and then some; as free as I ever felt, feeling sunshine that could make your heart melt!

on a pursuit of taking advantage of my destination; the odyssey I needed for affirmation; the treasure of life was meant to flourish, love and peace for the soul is what truly nourish.