Often I stumble down to a place that makes me dark; putting myself behind the prey that caused it from the start.
I stray from any form of manipulation; it causes me to feel confused with frustration.
Today, I retire from old guilt trips; I’m moving on to greater fellowships.
I’ve realized that support is replaceable; I understand that there’re more options than to lean on those who’d rather make a fool of you.
Devastation, embarrassment, and acceptance – these things have appeared in my life as a hinderance.
Exploiting it has opened my spirit, finding fruition within the problem.
Showing responsibility for my actions, to create better solutions to solve them.
Capturing the key idea of this conundrum inadmissibly, understanding where the roots begin; bellowing over indescribable emotions that I’m fighting within.
I’m confident this will also be well enough to come together; soon time will tell, until then, I’ll continue to apply the pressure!
Retaining inspiration to better my situation; another may see gray and think gloom, whereas I see a rainbow from my perception.
Gray to me is that fine line that petrifies folks; panicking, without realizing that it takes away your sanity once invoked.
I am ingenious, layered with principles that pushes me infinitely toward transcendence; as I continue, I realize that where I was weakened, is now a strength of independence.
Connecting to an inexperienced part of who I am; Undressing layers as each day pass – as if it’s an intimate promised land.
Any philistine that tamper with my devotion, shows the value of their time; my destination is inevitable, detours never put me in the position to ever run behind.
I am focused and resilient toward the path paved for me; mindfulness has kept my thoughts from feeling superfluous and empty – giving my mind more care and healing therapy.
going off the rails, whilst smiling harder than I ever have, all because i took a chance on defining faith; as I absorb all of this energy, i lose interest in the diversions that got me to this place.
It’s giving, “Finally!” – because the grunt of the lesson is behind me!
The things I surrender myself to will not be this world no longer, literally had to have everything stripped away from me โ Now look at me. Everything was taken away rigorously, the anguish of it all felt back to back; with no one to turn to, talk to, or run to but with the exception of the Lord! He’s who I’ve always needed, and I forgot that apparently. I start looking toward man to be the savior of my inequities, when I should’ve humbled myself and bowed down to the father.ย ย
I am in that place now, just another lesson that needed to be learned for me to understand nothing can be done without him. That wisdom, or intuition you feel within your spirit isn’t just any voice, take the time to meditate to listen so you can hear the warning too and not just with your ears. Your consciousness and intuition and the [precious] gift of common sense, was given to us by the Lord to utilize for the best of ability to live life abundantly. These gifts are only useful or powerful when you allow him to order your steps in the decisions needed for yourself.ย
It always seem like crazy talk until you have nothing left, it really feels crazy when you have nothing to give as well. A crimpling feeling I wish on no one honestly. I donโt care anymore about the things said about me, those words spoken about me in my face or behind my back will always come back on you tenfold! I’m covered by the blood, and that’s real.ย ย
Precisely quoted by my one of my favorite singers, “God knows it, Yourย mind impure, soul I possess, he knows it,ย Anointed and protected, I was chosen…”ย
An example of taking what I need and leaving what I donโt, everything was meant to be treated like such saying as though life should be treated like that with worldly things anyhow. Everything below heaven isn’t always right so why would I listen to every single thing said to me.ย ย
As I go on about it as a matter of fact, it seem like I need to just make better choices on what I take and what I leave; the way I’m choosing could possibly be ass backwards ha-ha ah man! Now that’s a brain teaser!ย ย
The will to conquer is the beginning of the victory
~Europa, Ki Wi
Being Thought About.. What if it was true?
Getting a little technical about that statement. Everyday, it really doesn’t matter who it is I’m thinking it could be; all I know is I wonder, “I wonder if they’re thinking about me?” Sounds like where I was going at – sounds like a passionate little rap. Moving forward, worrying about what the next person feels about me isn’t anything I care to put focus towards. I mean at this moment, I am creating my thoughts with letters put together, and it’s easy, I always own it! Keep pushing me, say what I thought you said anyway, go ahead, lie to me, and be a fake homie. The truth always comes to light, you can stay in that dark alley, I’ll just simple smile then, I heard it’s very bright. Kill them with kindness, it use to make sense, but now, to me, there’s no other saying like it. Being who I am is what people practice to be, I was blessed with this gift, so it’s a little more easy to me! Does this make you think about she? I mean me, I’m getting beside myself, but that’s only for me to agree! I’m in awe at the fact that people even take the time to paint me negatively; learning that once you spend time with me, that anything negative from me would be an impossibility. I laugh, no matter how I feel, I laugh. The best dose of a healthy starts begin with that, there’s no science behind it, it’s simple, no grids, no graphs. I wouldnโt think twice if that was the only choice I had. People and their thoughts with no common sense behind it, always have a point of view or opinion about who you are and how you feel, resulting in them looking and sounding a bit mindless. I know it’s someone out there that know what I am saying is really real!
Brooding – engaged in; showing deep thought about something that makes one sad or worried.
~ Meriam-Webster
I would never give credit to man for what God had already written over my life. What I will do, is be grateful for the right vessel and spirits that surrounded me when my true gift was brought to the forefront. Inspirations if you may. I do know that I’m happy in this place and the journey has only begun. The greatness the Lord has in store for me – even I won’t be able to fathom the abundance when it comes! I’m patient and very excited all at once. This is an exhilarating feeling, or energy โ what may be the best way to describe this vibration. Sounding as if I’m saying nothing at all, and that’s actually saying a lot. Your actions are verbal as well, don’t keep your mouth shut and still show me your moves like I don’t have more than sight โ but vision. Randomly as I write this, compromise happens to come to mind after hearing the how it was used in a deliberation of what a woman should be for anyone else but herself. Compromise is impossible when you’re only being yourself, and how do you not be yourself? Thatโs so much energy wasted โ people do this on their own too. What I wonder though is, if someone was to tell you, “hey! Donโt be yourself be something else, because if you want me in your life thatโs the compromise you have to make!” Like what! [chuckles very loud] Outrageous โ oh how the human behavior can be.
I’m not the one you can count to ten with; although, once the steam settles, I may consider forgiveness… I’m feeling dark today – maybe losing a bit of sunshine will show that taking advantage, is not okay…
I wish I wasn’t the monster under the smile, but I am and it began as a child… reflecting on many episodes, good and bad… I evolved to what I’ve witnessed and presented it perfectly… and its sad
don’t blame the mold of the model, blame those that watched and had expectations for me to follow –
emancipating my worries has taught me how to release and not bury – for healing, you should never feel you have to be in a hurry…
time can be free if you use it wisely – I’ve made that mistake, but I also take responsibility, without any pride in me…
the world and I have a peculiar kinship with explicit boundaries [determining its ambience, even that varies] – I like to think that I transition similar to binaries…
my creativity doesn’t make sense until it’s employed to a circumstance that can seem [to me] immense; analyzing mistakes made by self infliction, can make the finish line appear farther down the road…
basically all I’m saying is I cannot complain if I am a willing to devote.
wonders of wanderlust, the taste of life right now is robust; jumping the broom, crossing over leaving my old shell in another room – burning it down, smelling the unscented fume, this feeling can’t be refused…
sheltering my special view, to look toward a better perspective that will infinitely continue; discovering new techniques, whilst seeking out the things that make me unique. creating a whole new physique –
introducing the old structure, with a new silhouette of growth to meet… savoring the, “hand me down” wisdom – abiding the, “been there, done that[s]”, so that I can build a better kingdom…
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