exploring new paths with out a map; I’m experiencing a moment of relapse.
telling myself that this is normal; knowing damn well my behavior hasn’t been that formal.
my glands has released too much oxytocin; wanting nothing more than for time to go frozen.
what more can a person want, other than to be chosen?
my turn is coming really soon, so I will continue to humbly be patient until my life reflects a boon.
~ Europa
I’m amused at the things I choose to love, and stress about; mindlessly naïve to what I should’ve given doubt. I’m frazzled with thoughts I’ve constantly brainstormed; coming to an understanding that there’s a certain way to perform.
I am moving very steady; making preparations to be ready. whatever may come, I want to fully be whole for my blessing; my first reaction will be to many, quite an impression. I’ve been working on changeable flaws; I don’t bother listing them, it would sound like a drawn out clause.
I truly want to be a better person daily; given with support I hold tight to, can only be family. What’s insane, is they’re worst than strangers; though, it’s safe to say at least we can understand each others anger…
I realized that I have an unspeakable amount of strength; getting to a point where I am standing on what I meant. There’s a lot of energy used to manage my temperament. I’m befuddled with the way I’m often treated; no matter what though, I’ll do my best to be obedient.
been so long since I’ve did this, and truly, I’ve missed it. the release that I haven’t been practicing; feels like I neglected a certain satisfaction.
feeling like I’ve left myself wide open – with no outlet – completing thoughts only in my mind; by joking, or making idle threats.
a void can be felt physically, for certain. confused with depression; shown in every wrinkle in your face – it can be a burden. depression hurts, but it doesn’t start on the outside. within, it does. voids feel like drowning – in the mind there’s a flood.
moving forward, I’m turning the page; I’m beginning this chapter fresh. I am setting a new stage; experiencing a flow of blessings within each move I make, and I’ve never felt so happy to be in my flesh.
Shakia
I’m probably writing the most amazing things; and don’t even realize it
joining this pen with paper has changed my mind around – I had to believe in me and it. these words I’m given; its just for me, a perfect fit.
preparing myself for something I don’t even see yet; Lord knows, when it happens these moments wont be forgotten. this will not be a regret
Appropriating my posture –
I will be in public eye exposing these monsters
Europa's Space Of Poetry 