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perplexed*

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I am suffering from an emotion of pain that’s never paved my heart before. the more I think about the intimacy that resulted in emptiness, makes its especially sore.

funny how worlds can collide; feelings ruptures within, hiding the pain inside. what do you say to a person that you thought would love you back? the words to say has taken a hiatus, I just want to be emotionally detached!

I keep shutting down to keep from saying permanent words; making sure that everything I say is deduced to everything you deserve.

it just sucks when life makes you realize somethings you may want, is a hard no; the next lesson I believe I need to learn, is how to just let things go…

I am rattled with emotions; idle thoughts about God knows what – I must maintain my focus…

anew*

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men are so inferior to being open minded; they say they are, then boom! solitary confinement.

there’s no need to be rough with a delicacy; be gentle and calm with your way of intimacy.

walking down courting lane; uncovering adventures that I don’t care to explain. tuning in another’s point of view, enjoying what I see; wishing that sooner, I knew.

capture every moment as a blessing, selected personally for you; universally one moment was for you to embrace, because only you had the power to make it bloom.

dress me with favor; vow to me that I am your only, before the world and my savior…

Jabez*

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Pain

Hebrew Translation

i’ve been counting my blessings every moment my mind stand still; climbing over my own battles, conquering every hill.

anguish is not the best comfort; tough to deal with, and hard to ignore when you feel your tolerance fall downward. it’s a cycle in our existence; there are days were i had a cure to make me resistant.

polishing my character to be of better usage; my faith has gotten to far to start abusing it.

pain can inflict all day; i will still keep going, and still see my purpose without going astray…

caupernaum pt.1*

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village of comfort.

Hebrew Translation

sin full-grown, gives birth to death; taking away all your energy and your breath. where inequities from personal views are shared as a general problem; each of us has our transgressions, and not every one of them is worth solving.

the relationships we keep must be essential to our well-being, without these functions, I will never give you access; see. I want for my village to be ample of unconditional care, concern, and love fully dressed!

this village watches over my son, I have given a honorable position before the relation had begun; why? you’re apart of this family, whether you like me or not, love becomes our mutual understanding.

I’m ok with a fellowship of just two, maybe three; I could keep my eyes closer, watching a crowd that brought the power of thee. I am not the only one on watch; my God will always cover my blind spots, even after the day my heart stop!

GeHarashim*

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valley of skilled workers.

Hebrew Translation

I am compelled to follow the path drawn out for me, enduring the valleys that will ply me with strength to walk all endeavors; the quality of dynamism I possess, cannot allow negativity in at any measure.

those that follow my lead, know that I’m walking with them, and not ahead; showing an example to reciprocate is the best way to make sure your team isn’t mislead.

I am expanding my cerebration with blueprints of larger plateaus, full of momentum; having a certain confidence over yonder, is allowing your existence to be more than just a system.

centralized*

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finding that center is what’s important to me; it doesn’t matter what happened in the beginning.

there’s more to existing, than living for another’s opinion; no one else control’s you, only you haver that dominion. the certification of someone else also doesn’t complete you as a person; I mean you are the only version.

everything is revolving, always full-circle, looking for life to be more than improbable. Coasting through life trying to keep up with its obstacles.

I’ve been getting my ass kicked hard; all I want is for my child and I to live a life without putting up our guards.

Ghostly Mood*

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thinking about the scariest thing possible, having moments where I’m not sure if this might be a low audible, or is it a ghost? being haunted because I don’t know how to not do the most.

so it seems like my vibrant energy disturbs the dead, and I’m not sure how that works, but I said what I said. feeling like you can conquer this piece of work, my energy is like a virus; this energy will spread! starting from your toes and will work it’s way to your head. Ooh’s, is creepy, and the boo’s, that’s sleepy.

I’m not just saying, this is really real, getting smacked by a sheet, and looking at the floor to see no feet. Whoa! yet, as I speak I’m feeling the cold in these chills… goosebumps up and down my arm – the room is warm, yet every nerve in my body keeps jumping like I ain’t got the heat on.

everyday is scary, and being in a house alone, automatically takes your mind to this is a haunted home… here comes paranoia now, as if you seen the ‘It’ the clown. this is an unusual poem, the tradition of it is peculiar; maybe as you keep going you’ll see that it’s always better when its unfamiliar…


ultimately it’s nothing really left to say, ghosts don’t talk anyway, they make retarded noises, thinking they are really haunting the people that left them roses, when really its new tenants didn’t know this..