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interlude

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begging for better, writing an emotional letter – refraining from becoming sadder; aware of the thoughts that created the matter… but I am strong.

I believe i’ve held it in way too long, I’m not sure if I’m writing a poem or a song; all I know is, here, is where I belong… but I am also impulsive.

at least it’s acknowledged, I allow nothing to hold me bondage… but I must watch, and observe what I decide to seek, because everything wasn’t made for me…

disclosure*

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justice is facing all circumstances with grace, because words are power, it’s always a time, and a place… take your time, this moment you cannot scour – there’s no need to move with haste, be patient in growth, be a flower… to do things out of love, can make one who may feel below average, rise above; give encouragement blindly, then pray that it is defining…

be confident at your lowest, give thanks even when it consists of your misfortunes; signify who you yearn to become, place oneself in the position to be second to none…

manifest your needs, and desires will inevitably follow; consistently expose the things that should change today, never wait for tomorrow; create some mental space, and free yourself from needless sorrow…

aeration*

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I’m not the one you can count to ten with; although, once the steam settles, I may consider forgiveness… I’m feeling dark today – maybe losing a bit of sunshine will show that taking advantage, is not okay…

I wish I wasn’t the monster under the smile, but I am and it began as a child… reflecting on many episodes, good and bad… I evolved to what I’ve witnessed and presented it perfectly… and its sad

don’t blame the mold of the model, blame those that watched and had expectations for me to follow –

weird*

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often I reflect on a dream that is comparable to a premonition; there’re winks of an instance where I can see an ocean; I experience a reminiscent of the emotion I felt at the time, and although it feels innocuous, I fear there’re answers in it I must find..

it’s peculiar, I’m a bit eager to discern the gist of it, praying it isn’t a message I have repeatedly missed…

past perfect*

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keep my energy consistent, give me meaning to my very existence; move me without any complications – truly give me sight to see my changeable imperfections…

remove the hurt from my heart, make me one again without tearing me apart…

block the impact from unnecessary pain, love me without using me in vain

conform my thoughts in a place of peace, hear my prayers when i fall to my knees

give me more than carnal sight to see…

alone not lonely*

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four days I’ve been in this room; feeling bored, content, and blue… with acquisitions that even when I am alone, I am not lonely; I’m ok with knowing everyone can’t afford me…

my body scares me sometimes, when I’m unwell it doesn’t always show the signs; I thank God that when it comes to taking care of me, I don’t hold onto deficiencies, nor take on an attitude of pride…

the way I feel right now, doesn’t have the words to be found, I am blessed in so many ways, and we’re still in my early days…

I Seen Her*

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i had a vision, and saw the most ingenious, and beautiful woman; however, as I walked away from the mirror I no longer seen her…the only memory I could maintained were her eyes –

I swear, it’s all I could remember; it was like a portal into a peculiar kind of paradise… all my intentions for her, was to melt away the chill from her heart – because she was as cold as ice…