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hatch*

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a field of blooming flowers isn’t always honest; the surface can still be material, and hold you bondage.

you don’t share feelings when you’re playing cards, and believe me, not showing emotion can be hard.; when you’re carrying around this type of energy, saying how I feel can come off a bit unruly.

the way I was designed, took an ample amount of time; therefore, I’m sure as I go on through the shadow, I’ll be well prepared, I happen to be a fire sign. the truth is and will always be mine, no more worrying, or being depressed, there just isn’t any time.

I have to stay determined, remain on my own path – no matter how many times you bring up my past.

exist*

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feeling quite agitating, I mean I can be tolerable to somethings, but I don’t want to hesitate by not saying – this I will not be enabling!

failing to put myself first had its days ; feeling bad about what I may feel in itself, could never be appraised – I also wont allow them to just be placed on a shelf! had to take a break – just to be sure of myself.

that I will not fall like that, never again; I will always check the facts, its very end. I’m tired of the lies and misleads; its amazing how people are used more than materialistic things.

I think I am venting right now; screaming deafeningly loud within, yet, so quiet without. my perspective is always set to bird’s eye; my greatness will eventually shine through – what a time to be alive…

Exposure

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Maneuvering a strong and humble force,

Running steady, while producing swift speed;

A tread-climber course –

Taking the foundation; manipulating rooms

Rooms to the first floor of my success

That could never come too soon…

Mistakes I made were for a future test.

When it approach, the teacher will never say –

It’s happening –

For during a test – the teacher doesn’t talk ~

If I’m not ready; that’s my fault…

Preventing myself from unnecessary obstacles

So I won’t miss the signs…

Centering on not having an absent mind;

But facing things I may feel is difficult..

Evolving amazingly in every way;

Lifting myself up

Holding my own weight.

I’ll never be stuck,

Looking for anyone to help.

If it’s from you heart;

It’s in mine to accept.

I always see that first;

It’s due to me,

Before I get hurt.

Specifics aren’t important;

There, only to point out the selective.

Irony of unreliable sources;

It’s not what you call protective.

Back turns doesn’t always mean bye;

Though see you later, feels like a long time.

Random as I can be,

Justifying my ways as punctual;

Really doing my best at it spiritually,

Making everyday functional.

Fatalist*

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understanding things for what they are, can be hard when you find yourself in a circumstance to do just that; dealing with the realities of things being exactly what’s presented on the plat…

appropriately canvasing an existence, where what may have been absorbed, is far from meaningless prattle; this is a query in finding out if impossible was only to cover the actuality of life being improbable, just to hinder our quest within our travels…

being an idealist in a world of fabrication, can be intense at it’s core; bribery, scandal, and blackmail, sadly, I could list more. so many bad things happen around us and even when it’s simplified, still, we complicate what’s evident, causing an emotional and mental war…

with the world throwing doubt in your mind, questioning your own common sense; just to realize that your intuition was right, and it could’ve been your best defense. coexisting with dastardly populists isn’t living at all; being without judgment, I truly understand and also appreciate karma otherwise, life would be gull…

blowhard*

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a very boastful and talkative person

Meriam-Webster

being patient is like allowing life just to happen. I have realized that there are things you really can’t manipulate, and that’s ok. when the inevitable get’s involved, know that what was for you – would be yours anyhow; you are obligated to all your blessings no matter how long it takes to receive them.

time is what it is; though we try to get ahead of it; even times where we can actually make that happen, we don’t realize it until we get behind again. rambling on – but this is sensible stuff, no pulling wisdom out of thin air, just using the gift of common sense to apply better awareness…

Stop allowing the anxiety of opportunity get the best of you; there are many ways to see things in a better view. appointed to things you may not think you deserve; can turn negativity into a positive curve – even though having front row seats to so many problems can work on your nerves. that’s fine, it’s natural; we all will have our day, and that’s factual!

Fail At Losing

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I want to fail at losing; so that winning will prevail…

Europa

I wish to not miss things in the past; it’s over now, and it’s why it didn’t last. I want to grow in seasons, instead of growing only on certain evenings; I’ll later clarify and then, you’ll understand the meaning.

My progression can take time; the journey feel hard, but the journey is mine. Comprehending every step I take with precision; making sure the choices I make is the right decision.

Longing for enlightenment towards my future; the gift of discernment I’ll soon receive will feel more than super! I have days where I don’t feel that I’ve learned nothing; hence, only in the evening, when the day’s done is when I’m on to something…. I don’t want to be too late; only my decisions is what makes my fate.

No longer allowing time to pass; but being ahead of time will give me plenty of mass. After thoughts are intriguing; the last minute will not be my growth anymore, I will understand soon pass my evenings…

stay or leave*

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he didn’t leave her behind, and neither did she; even though the paths felt separate, together they walked them each, and in the end, they were and are still each others peace…

you think your labor is better done yourself, just to say you’ve done it on your own; knowing that there was someone who wanted to be there, now you’re successful, but still alone…

balking*

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I want to calmly be interested; reclusively intimate…

submissive and quiet, yet, loud in action; simple satisfaction…

I’m taking care of me; Praying entirely to my Lord, that I soon find real peace…

I’m ok, then I’m not; my circumstance feel small, but the mental toll becomes a lot.

I’ve been a big girl, making decisions that usually hurt; I’ve had darker moments, I think this one’s the worst…

Dicey and Inimitable*

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Behemoth and Leviathan

Creatures of Chaos

bellowing at the sky, hoping the entity of my faith hear my cry; I want to be cleansed, without the consequence of genocide.

wanting nothing more than to rectify the thoughts that have confused my mind many times. I am giving away nothing but mercy for the tribulations I have endured, along with its lies.

creating such a monster to protect the cowardice of a peculiar trait. fighting a greater good, without leaving casualties of war to an induced fate… creating it’s own fallout, because of selfishness, its the only fruit you choose to taste.

I choose forgiveness; I look on to the abyss as encouragement that light will shine inevitably, as I have witnessed. leading blind forecasts, is just like living through pandemonium, while still experiencing stillness; I am for the challenge in living through turmoil and pain to understand the discernment of liveliness.

replenish me entirely; cleanse the chaotic patterns from my life, showing the light through it all, making my finish line worth the anxiety…

forgiveness for me*

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I’m amused at the things I choose to love, and stress about; mindlessly naïve to what I should’ve given doubt. I’m frazzled with thoughts I’ve constantly brainstormed; coming to an understanding that there’s a certain way to perform.

I am moving very steady; making preparations to be ready. whatever may come, I want to fully be whole for my blessing; my first reaction will be to many, quite an impression. I’ve been working on changeable flaws; I don’t bother listing them, it would sound like a drawn out clause.

I truly want to be a better person daily; given with support I hold tight to, can only be family. What’s insane, is they’re worst than strangers; though, it’s safe to say at least we can understand each others anger…