Exposure

Maneuvering a strong and humble force,

Running steady, while producing swift speed;

A tread-climber course –

Taking the foundation; manipulating rooms

Rooms to the first floor of my success

That could never come too soon…

Mistakes I made were for a future test.

When it approach, the teacher will never say –

It’s happening –

For during a test – the teacher doesn’t talk ~

If I’m not ready; that’s my fault…

Preventing myself from unnecessary obstacles

So I won’t miss the signs…

Centering on not having an absent mind;

But facing things I may feel is difficult..

Evolving amazingly in every way;

Lifting myself up

Holding my own weight.

I’ll never be stuck,

Looking for anyone to help.

If it’s from you heart;

It’s in mine to accept.

I always see that first;

It’s due to me,

Before I get hurt.

Specifics aren’t important;

There, only to point out the selective.

Irony of unreliable sources;

It’s not what you call protective.

Back turns doesn’t always mean bye;

Though see you later, feels like a long time.

Random as I can be,

Justifying my ways as punctual;

Really doing my best at it spiritually,

Making everyday functional.

Fatalist*

understanding things for what they are, can be hard when you find yourself in a circumstance to do just that; dealing with the realities of things being exactly what’s presented on the plat…

appropriately canvasing an existence, where what may have been absorbed, is far from meaningless prattle; this is a query in finding out if impossible was only to cover the actuality of life being improbable, just to hinder our quest within our travels…

being an idealist in a world of fabrication, can be intense at it’s core; bribery, scandal, and blackmail, sadly, I could list more. so many bad things happen around us and even when it’s simplified, still, we complicate what’s evident, causing an emotional and mental war…

with the world throwing doubt in your mind, questioning your own common sense; just to realize that your intuition was right, and it could’ve been your best defense. coexisting with dastardly populists isn’t living at all; being without judgment, I truly understand and also appreciate karma otherwise, life would be gull…

Dicey and Inimitable*

Behemoth and Leviathan

Creatures of Chaos

bellowing at the sky, hoping the entity of my faith hear my cry; I want to be cleansed, without the consequence of genocide.

wanting nothing more than to rectify the thoughts that have confused my mind many times. I am giving away nothing but mercy for the tribulations I have endured, along with its lies.

creating such a monster to protect the cowardice of a peculiar trait. fighting a greater good, without leaving casualties of war to an induced fate… creating it’s own fallout, because of selfishness, its the only fruit you choose to taste.

I choose forgiveness; I look on to the abyss as encouragement that light will shine inevitably, as I have witnessed. leading blind forecasts, is just like living through pandemonium, while still experiencing stillness; I am for the challenge in living through turmoil and pain to understand the discernment of liveliness.

replenish me entirely; cleanse the chaotic patterns from my life, showing the light through it all, making my finish line worth the anxiety…

forgiveness for me*

I’m amused at the things I choose to love, and stress about; mindlessly naïve to what I should’ve given doubt. I’m frazzled with thoughts I’ve constantly brainstormed; coming to an understanding that there’s a certain way to perform.

I am moving very steady; making preparations to be ready. whatever may come, I want to fully be whole for my blessing; my first reaction will be to many, quite an impression. I’ve been working on changeable flaws; I don’t bother listing them, it would sound like a drawn out clause.

I truly want to be a better person daily; given with support I hold tight to, can only be family. What’s insane, is they’re worst than strangers; though, it’s safe to say at least we can understand each others anger…

ebullience*

I’m sharpening my skills I haven’t yet executed; I’m becoming stronger and no longer feeling persecuted. walking in my shoes has taken a tole; running, jumping, NEVER walking, I’m always ruining my soles.

benefiting from hurt is a serious level of reaping; stay close, I haven’t went left, but I tend to be right when I’m speaking…

those that show consistency, only do when it profits selfish satisfactions; my mind is what truly represents my benefaction; yet, I’m made to always feel as if I’m nothing more than a small diffraction.

love me, not my flesh; cherish my spirit, without distress, allow ourselves to genuinely mesh. I will not beg for understanding and intimacy to be vested; never again will I allow my heart to feel detested…

Qi*

I have a story that would blow your mind; it could take awhile, so I hope you have time…

building a cornerstone that’ll create a new past; pushing back the bad dwellings with the good and vast. as a teen I portrayed the life of an adult; when it was time to act my age, I didn’t know how, and that’s not my fault.

influences can extend a huge impact; those who are elder to me had plans to enact. adolescent and naïve to what was really right and really wrong; being in that position can also come with rebellion, while being headstrong.

with such responsibility at a stage during puberty, while I’m fighting demons to get far from a toxic continuity; I’m turning it all around, once I’ve crossed over the abyss; I’ll finally have something else to reminisce…

uttermost*

far away from here sounds like a figment; the way things have been going, it doesn’t sound like a bad commitment. I wanna be where only stars brighten my night, while sunshine illuminates my day; I wanna get lost in a conception of felicity, grasping every aspect of this phase.

no longer living with a mindset of life feeling often naught; neutralizing any wickedness that may try to overcast any dream I’ve sought. appeasing to idealize an existence of purity and its nourishments; some days I wish for evil there would be a special law to banish it, with the communities full encouragement.

I aspire for genuine admiration to cleanse my mind of the thought of it being improbable; free of naivety in knowing that nothing is truly impossible. my feet are grounded to the earth and my mind and is centralized in faith; for this figment I revered is closer than far away…

perplexed*

I am suffering from an emotion of pain that’s never paved my heart before. the more I think about the intimacy that resulted in emptiness, makes its especially sore.

funny how worlds can collide; feelings ruptures within, hiding the pain inside. what do you say to a person that you thought would love you back? the words to say has taken a hiatus, I just want to be emotionally detached!

I keep shutting down to keep from saying permanent words; making sure that everything I say is deduced to everything you deserve.

it just sucks when life makes you realize somethings you may want, is a hard no; the next lesson I believe I need to learn, is how to just let things go…

I am rattled with emotions; idle thoughts about God knows what – I must maintain my focus…

anew*

men are so inferior to being open minded; they say they are, then boom! solitary confinement.

there’s no need to be rough with a delicacy; be gentle and calm with your way of intimacy.

walking down courting lane; uncovering adventures that I don’t care to explain. tuning in another’s point of view, enjoying what I see; wishing that sooner, I knew.

capture every moment as a blessing, selected personally for you; universally one moment was for you to embrace, because only you had the power to make it bloom.

dress me with favor; vow to me that I am your only, before the world and my savior…