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Journal Entry # 18 and 19

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18*

listening to a tune played by a special bird, it has a specific sound; I’m not sure if I’m the only who heard too, I just know I want hear it everyday now.

I’m seeing the small things others may overlook; life will really throw things at you, that you won’t find in any book.

face value defines this moment; observations show that only faith gives me strength to even think of hoping.

I’m being as honest as I can, I truly hope its showing.

19*

am I being repetitive because I express my main goal in different way? Or am I working it out to find a solution within this pain; I’m no longer approaching my affairs the same – my behavior is slowly becoming tamed.

I benefit from my “will” to be in control; I’ll rather be self taught, than to sell my soul… My journey is filled with many elements; beyond the naked eye, there’re blessings and accomplishments that only I can explain when it comes to its developments…

Journal Entry [interlude]

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Gnarl*

moving on in my philosophy, can help to be more parallel; being aligned, whilst asking for support, always end with, “I wish you well.”

trying to enter a room without smite – doing my best to show hospitality, even when I may think it’s not right.

I have an insisting heart toward my aspirations; as I traveled many roads I’ve broken a great measure of curses, going back many generations.

finalizing the agreement I made to myself; Assuring each choice I make never hinder me, but help.

Journal Entry # 17

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Gray*

Retaining inspiration to better my situation; another may see gray and think gloom, whereas I see a rainbow from my perception.

Gray to me is that fine line that petrifies folks; panicking, without realizing that it takes away your sanity once invoked.

I am ingenious, layered with principles that pushes me infinitely toward transcendence; as I continue, I realize that where I was weakened, is now a strength of independence.

Journal Entry # 16

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understatements*

Connecting to an inexperienced part of who I am; Undressing layers as each day pass – as if it’s an intimate promised land.

Any philistine that tamper with my devotion, shows the value of their time; my destination is inevitable, detours never put me in the position to ever run behind.

I am focused and resilient toward the path paved for me; mindfulness has kept my thoughts from feeling superfluous and empty – giving my mind more care and healing therapy.

going off the rails, whilst smiling harder than I ever have, all because i took a chance on defining faith; as I absorb all of this energy, i lose interest in the diversions that got me to this place.

It’s giving, “Finally!” – because the grunt of the lesson is behind me!

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Journal Entry # 15

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3rd Moon’s the Charm*

The room is still on high frequency

-I’m awake, yet it feels like a dream

being embraced like that, was the definition of intimacy

-God knows, nothing is what it seem

I’m in anguish by the way things are conditioned

-As a woman , it’s hard not to display emotion

I get mad often, because, what happened to my choices and decisions

-Why can’t i just be the focus?

turn the page

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The Title*

I’m interpreting my current train of thought

-thinking of the fights that i’ve fought

there’s a tug of war between running onward, or away from my issues

-really putting in the work, hoping the strategy isn’t misused

encapsulated by worries i shouldn’t dwell on

-focusing on my breathing – hoping this moment don’t last long

Journal Entry # 13

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An interlude*

Almost close to home

-as I get closer, I begin to feel alone

Do I really want that many hands out?

-I don’t desire emotions of doubt

With prospect I realized I enjoy to give

-thereof, I really had to learn how to forgive

Taking action in developing a first impression

-empathizing where i see fit with digression

Journal Entry # 12

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Adducing –  citing as evidence or proof…

I’ve been shuffling around, looking for a vantage point

-Envious thoughts are rebuked, I am someone conjoint

I want to be united within, the without doesn’t reflect the true image

-I’m playing this field aggressively; the vibes are showing an intense scrimmage, culminating passively

Journal Entry # 11

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A Blue View*

Understand why I refrain from asking questions

-finding the guidance is more than suggestion

Give me time though

-I look onward, and not into long ago

My mind circulate with many proposals

-digesting on the actions revealed as noble

Identifying my legacy without menace

-espousing a mind that’s conscientious