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The Title*

I’m interpreting my current train of thought

-thinking of the fights that i’ve fought

there’s a tug of war between running onward, or away from my issues

-really putting in the work, hoping the strategy isn’t misused

encapsulated by worries i shouldn’t dwell on

-focusing on my breathing – hoping this moment don’t last long

Journal Entry # 14*

Phantasm -a mental representation of a real object


You never know who may be watching

-being strong isn’t walking, but marching

Make your decisions significant

-announce the respect you yearn to implement

Be with grace, and speak with honor

-deceit has never done anything, but make any situation harder

Journal Entry # 13

An interlude*


Almost close to home

-as I get closer, I begin to feel alone

Do I really want that many hands out?

-I don’t desire emotions of doubt

With prospect I realized I enjoy to give

-thereof, I really had to learn how to forgive

Taking action in developing a first impression

-empathizing where i see fit with digression

Journal Entry # 12

Adducing – ย citing as evidence or proof…


I’ve been shuffling around, looking for a vantage point

-Envious thoughts are rebuked, I am someone conjoint

I want to be united within, the without doesn’t reflect the true image

-I’m playing this field aggressively; the vibes are showing an intense scrimmage, culminating passively

Journal Entry # 11

A Blue View*


Understand why I refrain from asking questions

-finding the guidance is more than suggestion

Give me time though

-I look onward, and not into long ago

My mind circulate with many proposals

-digesting on the actions revealed as noble

Identifying my legacy without menace

-espousing a mind that’s conscientious

Break*

“A still tongue makes a wise head.” Do much thinking before you do much talking.”

โ€“ ALFRED J. PARKER

My Name is Shakia*

the names we use create life experiences – and mine has created a kindred nature with the desire to associate in friendship and understanding both socially and in the business world.

Peaceful and settled conditions can often appeal to me; Naturally, I am desirous with having the security of home, where my life can follow a definite pattern, where I don’t have to make major decisions.

even though its rare, I find it difficult to take a definite stand, partly because of what I may be lacking [maybe confidence] – I also dislike any issues which create disputes between people.

Procrastination is a nasty habit which often, what you can call a weakness of my nature, causing an inability to always complete plans or concentrate too long.

I need to see a concept presented completely before I can understand it, and if I can’t understand it – I come to my own conclusion, often failing to listen to and reason out another’s point of view

I resist being forced into change and can become almost impervious to new ideas.

I desire refinement, understanding and appreciation, yet sometimes my outward attitude does not reveal my innermost feelings, and thus, I have never felt truly understood.

Journal Entry # 10

the fan is blowing in one direction, while the wind moves wherever; my fireplace shows the illusion of flames, though, no warmth comes from it - I'm just setting the tone for a mental endeavor.

comfort is imperative; facing a door labeled "opportunities", hoping that when I walk through it, it changes my narrative..

Journal Entry # 9

as positive as I want to appear, sadness do sometimes reflect in the mirror…

Ki

sitting in hiding, wanting to be rescued and recovered; my heart has been hardened, because with revealing myself, who I am, still hasn’t been discovered.

it’s almost like I know of something unknown; I’m not neglecting the time that was put in, but in this I found that I am alone.

this isn’t bad; it’s a sign that things are temporary, and eventually will be in the past.

I’m realizing that I cannot expect someone to reflect the same actions I would; saving and finding me, was a lesson that never understood.

I didn’t allow it to hinder my way, I’m the one who regulate my space; as eager as I am to completely make it around the circle, i will continue to stay in my lane

Journal Entry # 8

I want to be spiritual in a different form – grasping all the knowledge available, for me to conform…

my crutch usually defines as me shutting down – and that’s an understatement; how hard is it to improve without feeling complacent? I wish I knew right now…

my focus is genuinely everywhere, and this forces me to make myself more alert, and more aware; even though deep down, at times, it can be hard to bear

in the middle of all of it; this time in my life will pass, and i will forgive, and learn from whatever it is i didn’t forget…

Journal Entry #7*

learning to separate the spirit from the emotion…

within myself is where peace truly live; especially, when you learn to forgive.

I am more pleased by my new behavior, it use to feel like failure …

I yearn to genuinely be humble; so, I stray from judgement – wouldn’t want my blessings to crumble…

it’s so much I want to do; being good at just one thing, has never been my mood!